Wednesday, April 07, 2004
I have moved.
i dare you to find me now.
no longer here.
if you do find me, comment.
but i doubt you will.
good bye Blogdrive.
Posted at 4/7/2004 7:53:40 pm by lunisfloweris
Sunday, March 28, 2004
Posted at 3/28/2004 8:17:45 pm by lunisfloweris
I say a lot of things i dont mean later, but you have to realize i am very pissed off right now.
Look at it from my point of view.
i have a reason to be upset.
im pushing everyone away fom me. and i ask myself why?
*if you remeber, here is an entry that talks about how i dont hate anyone.*
Posted at 3/28/2004 12:44:33 pm by lunisfloweris
haha, as of right now, this is my sisters away message
i know a hundred ways to die/ i often thought id try one/ lie down beneath a motor truck/ someday when standing by one.
or throw myself from off a bridge/ except such things must be/ so hard upon the scavengers/ and men that clean the sea.
i know some poison i could drink/ive often thought id taste it/ but mother bought it for the sink/and drinking it would waste it.
hey, if you are reading any entries from today, and im not on for you to talk to, dont be afraid to call me. really. it might do both of us some good.
Posted at 3/28/2004 9:08:13 am by lunisfloweris
i hate my "friends" so why do they "love" me back?
Hey, if i'm the "blunt one" in the group, might as well be at a time like now. Just completely open and direct. after all, isn't that what being blunt is? or is it that i just tell people what i think and not what they want to hear? either way, you are going to get an earful, b/c chances are i'm too angry to talk to anyone in person, but if they would like me to, i will gladly repeat it for them.
Forewarning: this will change relationships i have with people, if i had any at all.
MY LIFE IS ONE HUGE LIE!
There are select few people that can make me laugh now. and no, its not who you think anymore. Mike has actually caused me more pain in 3 weeks than everyone since and camp combined. with the exception of Blast and my birthday. oh that pisses me off! I HATE YOU ALL!
and there are the people i had to tolerate if i was going to be friends with everyone else.
Mike, you are fucking saying that you didnt do anything, well i can tell you 3 things that really pissed me off yesterday. but then there was one thing that happened that i thought was funny. It doesn't redeem yourself, but i liked it. When becca put her head on your shoulder, and you just pushed her off. now, that was the only time on that ride home you put a smile on my face. Wow, you are really slacking as an awesome best friend.
Maybe if i were dead this all wouldnt have happened.
I don't want to kill myself.
I just want to die.
There's a difference.
But then there would still be the bitch and the hypocrit....
but i would be suffering in hell. Funny how that works out.
Posted at 3/28/2004 8:45:54 am by lunisfloweris
running out of things to say for a title. im not creative anymore. its seems all the life is draining out of me. its just as well.
life sux anyways.
Posted at 3/28/2004 12:31:08 am by lunisfloweris
Thursday, March 25, 2004
hey, i dont talk about other peoples personal life, so why are ppl talking about mine? Things that happened weeks ago are still topics of convrsation Thats b/c some ppl just cant let goof the past, and the fact that they are REALLY nosy. If i can let go, surely you can too.
Life sux. Very Badly.
Her dad was right.
But quite honestly, this whole month has been bad. Not as bad as the day we came back from Indy tho...THAT was BAD! But its getting there.
Oh god, life sux. oh i already said that...ha ha...ha. sigh, why do i kid myself?
Fritz and i had a nice conversation in English.Somehow the movie Dogma came up. Very good movie.
Then, i started to cry in French class. So miserable. but no one wants to hear about it. or me.
Je veux mouris. maintenant.
J'ai renonce a vie.
Song o the day: "I hate everything about you" by 3 days grace.
just cuz gabby and jes and i were singing it at lunch yesterday.
and if you noticed that this was posted friday but says thursdy, my internet broke and i needed to get ths up.
Posted at 3/25/2004 5:58:38 pm by lunisfloweris